I posted this morning on my Apple Podcast subscriber only detailing what happened to me yesterday and today. Recently, when I am attacked a "certain" way, I get a text from The Hershey Hotel sometimes before during, leading up to the attack, and or, after the attack. The thing is, I am in New Kensington,PA no where near Hershey, PA.
The day before yesterday of the vile violent attack, I had locked my bedroom door before I left my home. I went to the store, and when I came back my lock was off and my door was wide open. That same day a word appeared in my word game, and I was inflicted with pain the entire evening.
I did a podcast, that I never posted yesterday. I said I most likely won't post it, for a whole lot of reasons. Mainly I did not post the podcast because the topic and issues I was talking about didn't just involve me and were of a more serious nature (life and death issues).
However, I think whoever attacked me last night, was hoping I would post the podcast from yesterday morning out of anger, retaliation, and defense against the attack. Knowing, my need to minimize the deliberate low bar attacks, and give credit to the high bar utilization of this biotech. Which in contrast, is a deliberate effort on my part to create change in the harmful way someone uses the biotech and instead esteem the great things this biotech can do as well. The attack was a deliberate use of reverse psychology, whoever attacks me knows I'm always trying to turn lemons into lemonade. Their attacks is always, to make me taste and feel what's bitter. They knew my defense would be to retaliate and show my courage, strength, and power. But at what cost and whose expense, just to brag, or save face against the vile attack that was inflicted on me last night and this morning. Whoever attacked me was undoubtedly sure I would post, having the need to be the first, the smart one, the privy, the leader, the hero.
However, I didn't post, because the attack inflicted on me yesterday and today was letting me know, that there are people always looking to make a mockery of any good efforts ,unselfish deeds I may have felt or been compelled to do, because I actually do care, and often, either I experienced or imagined myself in the same situation; I am aware that person is faced with, and think what would I wish they had done. It causes me to move forward, despite the backlash. Last night was the backlash and an unrewarding act of hatred. An attempt to make me feel powerless, an attempt to apply nerval pressure that unnerves me, hoping to get me to demonstrate a lack of control, that can be looked upon like a freak show in a "dilapidated cage" of humiliation.
Instead of posting the podcast I did yesterday morning, I posted the podcast that didn't necessarily show my power, but instead, exposed and showed the change that needs to occur moving forward in the biotechnology industry using a detailed description and analogy about The Psychology of Feeling and what happened to me last night and this morning on HumanCapitalPodcast.com.
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